Tuesday, March 28, 2006

Doctor follow-up

Today is another milestone day for Kathleen. She meets with her doctors to find out what stage cancer she has, further lymph node results, and when the chemo begins.

It's days like these that make it all more real to me. I feel raw, emotional and anxious. I can't get through typing this without crying. There have been few days that I've been like this: the day I found out about her cancer, the day of her surgery and today.

I know it's not the events in life that are good or bad, but the meaning I give them. I know there's no real reason for the tears, so what is it?

What is the meaning of today for me?